Words From A Scratch Paper

Dear YOU,

I fell in love a lot of times. I met different people, from different walks of life, and tried to deal with their personalities. I defeated all the pain, the heartaches, and trashed all the memories which made tears roll down my face. But as they say, repeated experiences make you tired and may even keep you wasted. I got tired. My heart got tired.

I became numb.

By the time I realized that, I felt really sorry for myself, for I can't have that great feeling working through my system again. I admit that I admired people for their looks, their talents and their character, but never did my heart beat the way it did when I felt love in the past. I tried falling for someone, but no matter how hard I do it, I can't make myself fall in love again. Yes, you can never let yourself fall in love, because it just happens - to the most unexpected person, at the most unexpected time. 

I closed my eyes, and believed that no one can make me feel love again, and then I thought of permanently closing my heart. Though there were some who admitted that they have feelings for me, still I can't guarantee that I can love them back. I just can't feel it. No love, no tears, no pains. I have friends, and I considered them as my love.  

I don't want to fall in love again.

I don't want to get hurt again.

I don't want to feel the pain.

I promised myself,

I will never fall in love again- never! 

...until you came... 

I broke that promise I made,

For at last, I felt love again - a love to last forever!

No, I still don't want to feel the pain.

No, I still don't want to get hurt again.

But you're worth it, And yes, I want to fall in love again.

I opened my eyes, and believed that you made me feel love again, and then I thought that I was a fool for attempting to permanently close my heart. You never admitted your feelings, but if you'll do, I'll guarantee you all my love. Now, I can feel it. Yes to love. And I will never let tears and pains bother us. I still have friends, but now, this is a different kind of love.

By the time I realized that, I feel great for I have that great feeling flowing down through my veins. I admit that I admired people in the past, but what's important is you who I admire and love at present. I didn't try falling for you, I didn't make myself fall in love with you, because it just happened - to the most unexpected person, at the most unexpected time. 

I am in love. 

I fell in love a lot of times. I met different people, from different walks of life, and tried to deal with their personalities. I defeated all the pain, the heartaches, and trashed all the memories which made tears roll down my face. But as they say, you should never get tired in experiencing things, for they give you lessons to ponder. I love you. I'll never get tired. My heart will never get tired of loving you.

xoxo,

Sheena Niña
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