Inside My Heart

A few years ago, after my more than a year relationship, I decided to Kissed Dating Goodbye, to just entrust my love life to God.

Some people who heard about my decision not to date until I’m ready for marriage assume that my heart must’ve be broken. No, my heart was made know by my Savior.  The change in my attitude was the result of realizing the implications of belonging to Him. The Son of God died for me! He came to free me from hopelessness of living for myself. That had to change everything – including my love life. Having a boyfriend was no longer my greatest need. Knowing and obeying Him was. I wanted to pleased Him in my relationships even if it meant looking radical and foolish to other people – even if it meant Kissing Dating Goodbye!

-Joshua Harris, I Kissed Dating Goodbye

And owned this poem…

Can I touch his face,

And feel his embrace?

It’s been a long, long wait;

Who is my fate?

“Be patient, my waiting rose;

Your Romeo bee, I chose,

To be someone kind and loving;

Who will arrive in my timing.

Heartaches may come your way;

Sadness in your heart may stay;

In every fall I will help you stand;

I’ll reach out to touch your hand.

I have in mind the place and date;

Not a minute early or a second too late.

Replace your doubts by trust;

For complete surrender is a MUST!”

 

But how could I fall at the time when I am guarding my heart????

When the ever little demanding but somehow a little bit charming cutie pours the magic to the locket, the world goes to a roller coaster. A roller coaster that promised certainty and uncertainty. But when the magic prevails, the star shines so bright and the magic goes to forever.

But… but the magic didn’t goes to forever! But maybe… maybe just for this moment.
Maybe, at the right time, at the right place and for all the right reasons God will whisper a spell for the magic to goes forever.

Thank you for being my sunshine in the world full of magic and roller coaster.

If and only if he knows what’s inside my heart…

We met in an unexpected and crazy chance. But I learned to love him even though he is partly stranger to me…

Maybe he’s too young… (but I don’t think so!) or maybe I just expected too much from him.

I want to met him… I want to give him a power hug and kiss..And I want to tell him right in his ear how much I love him.

I accepted his flaws (and I’ll accept all his flaws, if given the chance). And no matter what my mind shouts for, my heart, trust everything he tells me.

He simply draws a smile in my face just by simply thinking about him or just by the thought that he is always there for me.

I hate to admit it but I think my heart was accidentally broken :’(

(Update: He told me that not to think about this.)

Ikaw lang pag-ibig sa buhay ko 
Ngunit bakit ka naman ganyan 
Walang tiwala sa akin 
Mahal na mahal naman kita 
Tunay ito, aking sinta 
Hindi kukupas kailan pa man 
Kahit itanong mo 
Kanino man, mahal kitang talaga 
Refrain: 
Gabi-gabi na lang 
Sa pagtulog ko 
Ikaw lang ang panaginip 
Pag ako’y gising na 
Ikaw pa rin ang nasa isip 
Kahit hindi mo ko kaipiling 
Asahan mong sa iyo pa rin 
Ang pusong ito 
Na iyong inangkin 
Ikaw lang ang tanging minamahal ko 
Huwag makinig kaninuman 
Ikaw lang naman at wala nang iba 
Sana ay maniwala ka na 
Tunay ito, aking sinta 
Hindi kukupas kailan pa man 
Kahit itanong mo kaninuman 
Mahal kitang talaga 
Refrain: 
Gabi-gabi na lang 
Sa pagtulog ko 
Ikaw lang ang panaginip 
Pag ako’y gising na 
Ikaw pa rin ang nasa isip 
Kahit hindi mo ko kaipiling 
Asahan mong sa iyo pa rin 
Ang pusong ito 
Na iyong inangkin 
Gabi-gabi na lang 
Sa pagtulog ko 
Ikaw lang ang panaginip 
Pag ako’y gising na 
Ikaw pa rin ang nasa isip 
Kahit hindi mo ko kaipiling 
Asahan mong sa iyo pa rin 
Ang pusong ito 
Na iyong inangkin

Hopeless Romantic

"Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no records of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails."

1Corinthians 13:4-8

This verse describes the characteristics of true love. These qualities can certainly be found in the person of Jesus Christ, and they can be found in all truly loving relationships. The problem with trying to “find” love in our dating lives, is that too often we don’t look for these characteristics. Rather we look at physical appearance, popularity, or wealth. These are not the qualities that God looks at and neither should we.

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I love love.

I am, by my own admission, a hopeless romantic. If such thing is possible, I am in love with being in love.

There’s nothing else quite like it, and if you’ve experienced it, you know what I mean. Being in love is a patchwork of a thousand indescribable moments. Nervous energy runs through your body whenever you think of that special person, which is every walking minute. You lose interest in the dull chores of eating, sleeping and thinking rationally. You discover that every love song on your iPod (sosyal!) was written for you. It seems that someone has removed blinders from your eyes and you can see the world full of wonder and mystery and happiness.

“True love waits, but not just for sex. It waits for the right time to commit to God’s brand of love – unwavering,unflagging, and totally committed.”

To me and other romantics who share a “love for love”, God wants to give us a higher, grander view. He wants to deepen our understanding. Romance can thrill us to our core, but it’s only a small part of true love.

Ask Me #09

#09 Which is the one book that has really impressed you?

--> I Kissed Dating Goodbye by Joshua Harris

"Some people who heard about my decision not to date until I’m ready for marriage assume that my heart must’ve be broken. No, my heart was made know by my Savior.  The change in my attitude was the result of realizing the implications of belonging to Him. The Son of God died for me! He came to free me from hopelessness of living for myself. That had to change everything – including my love life. Having a boyfriend was no longer my greatest need. Knowing and obeying Him was. I wanted to pleased Him in my relationships even if it meant looking radical and foolish to other people – even if it meant Kissing Dating Goodbye!"

When Love and CRAZYness Collide

Hi loves!!!

LATEness na naman! Haha :) Pluease bear with me ;)

It's my first time to travel by sea from Manila going to Cebu and it's really a WOW! Thank you to 2Go Travel who makes my journey a complete awesomeNESS!!! I don't have photos though.. #EPICFAIL Haha! They have a superb accommodations plus the fact I've met Mr. SEAMAN (loloko?) Haha  :D Okay.. I'm talking nonsense or should I say too much! Wew!!! ;)

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Staying here around COLON area is equals to CRAZYness! Haha :) Naku.. Pero keri lang. Pansamantala lang naman eh. AJA!!!

"I want to stay for good here. Not because you are here but because I want to.. But if staying here will make you mine, that's a great bonus!"

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"When God knows I'm ready for the responsibility of commitment.. He'll reveal the right person under the right circumstances.. I'll wait patiently.. I don't waste my time searching and wishing.. I'll grow and be ready.. And I'll see.. God will give me a LOVE STORY far greater than I could dream of! "

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Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no records of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails.

1Corinthians 13:4-8

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When words are not enough to speak what's in you heart...

Ask Me: #08

#08: I wish I knew earlier that…

… being single is the best gift that you received from GOD. That being single, you are free to do everything you want and you are just thinking about yourself! Single equals to FREEdom! ;)

"A lot of people are afraid to say what they want. That’s why they don’t get what they want." — Madonna

Ask Me: #07

#07: At the end of a really bad day, I…

 …drown my sorrows in a lot of ice cream, chocolates and junk foods! In short, I drown my sorrows in EATING! Hehehe :)

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Hello there!

Now off to the place I love the most! Less stress, here I come! Haha :)

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Stalker Mode: ON

I think ANDUN pa din siya!!!!!!!!!!

Hhhhmmmm..... Magkita kaya kami? ;)

Will update! :)

xoxo,

Sheena

List 5

Random Things About You

a. Shy

b. Irresponsible (?)

c. Immature na mature!

d. Adventurous

e. Sentimental

Books You Own

a. Purpose Driven Life

b. I Kissed dating Goodbye & Boy Meets Girl

c. Twilight Saga (Twilight, New Moon, Eclipse, Breaking Dawn)

d. The Vampire Diaries

e. The Next Generation Leader and a lot more… :)

Songs You Memorized

a. Dance With My father

b. Beautiful in my Eyes

c. The Past

d. Butterfly Kisses

e. Ordinary Song

Celebrity Crushes

a. Ian Somerhalder

b. Chase Crawford

c. Robert Pattinson

d. David Archueleta

e. Paul Wesley

Movies you Love

a. Twilight Saga

b. 2012

c. A Walk to Remeber

d. Gossip Girl

e. Anak

Random Things Around Your Room

a. Posters, Magazines, and Books

b. Pillows (a lot of pillows. Hehe)

c. Stuffed Toys

d. Clothes, Accessories and Shoes

e. Pictures :)

Bad Habits

a. doing things without asking permission from my parents. :)

b. eating too much of junk foods and chocolates. :)

c. one day millionaire shopper. Harhar (anyway, I work hard for what I have. (?) may ganun?)

d. doing an unimportant thing(s) first before doing the important ones.

e. too stubborn.

Wishes / Dreams

a. To have a great leader who will truly serves the interest of the public not himself and to make his position as an instrument for a greater future of everybody.

b. To build a foundation/charity for the welfare of street people/ unfortunate people.

c. To make all Filipino well educated, responsible, discipline and to provide them whatever essential things they want..

d. To make all my love ones happy and contented all their lives.

e. To be a business icon and be one of the Top Ten Richest Filipino!

Things You Want To Do Before You Die

a. Travel around the Philippines and after that around the world naman. Hehe:)

b. To make all Filipino well educated, responsible, discipline and to provide them whatever essential things they want..

c. Discover the undiscovered.,:)

d. Enjoy life to the fullest!

e. Throw a huge party and invite all my love ones. Spend quality time with them.

Pet Peeves

a. People who are mean to the animals and to the environment.

b. Corrupt government leaders.

c. People who are self-serving.

d. Social Climbers.

e. Paki-alamero ng gamit ng may gamit.

xoxo,

Sheena

Ask Me: #06

#06: The best month of the year is…

…January! Because it is my birthday month and my other two sisters. TRIPLE birthday bash is always AWESOME!!! HAPPY!!! :)

xoxo,

Sheena

Ask Me: #05

I already have a "scheduled" #05 question (for tomorrow morning) but because I am the one who asked him to asked me and I promised him that I'll answered his question tonight at this very moment even though I already posted my question of the day... Ito na yon!!! Haha :)

#05: Are you in favor for courtship thru internet or cellphone? Why?

*I'll go for a NO answer! Maybe I'll say this and that, do this and that BUT wouldn't meant it. I still want the "traditional" courtship. It's okay if we met thru those thingy but the courtship should be and must be the "traditional" way. Keep in mind the word, RESPECT! :)

"True love isn't expressed in passionately whispered words or an intimate kiss or an embrace; before two people are married, love is expressed in self-control, patience, even words left unsaid."

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no records of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails.

1Corinthians 13:4-8

Thank you Reymar Veloso for the question! Hahaha :) #namedrop

xoxo,

Sheena <3>

Ask Me: #04

#04: The best decision I've ever made:

… is not to be in hurry to fall in love because God will give me the right person at the right time, at the right place, and for all the right reasons.

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And someone missed me like crazy!!! Hahaha :DDD

Saw this at my email pero hindi ko naman nakita sa comment box ng blog ko. And I should approved this first before makita sa comment box ko. Hhhmmm.. ANYARE??? Hehe :)


xoxo,

Sheena

Ask Me: #03

This is in connection with my blog post yesternight.. Waley lang!!! :DDD

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#03: How do you handle criticism or bad rumors?

*I just ignore it! Expert ako diyan eh. Hehe :) For me, for as long as I know the truth, wala akong pakialam. Nakaka-stress lang yan kung iisipin ko pa eh. I grow up with a lot of criticism around (thank you to my ever dearest father who had been a politician, na dinamay pa ako! Haha!). At ako yata ang reyna ng mga walang pakialam sa mundo! :) I have my own world, and I rule it. Sabihin niyo na lahat ng gusto niyong sabihin about sakin, WALA AKONG PAKIALAM! This is me, this is my life! ;)))

xoxo,

Sheena Niña

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Journal: Facebook Deactivated

Hello lovies!!! How are you? :)

Just finished re-reading my blog posts! Weew!!! Nag-ipon pa ako nun ng GUTS para lang mag BLOGWALKING sa sarili kong blog! Haha :)

And what I learned???

I found my past posts so childish and innocent isama na din ang BORING tapos may mga wrong grammar pa! Yikes!!! But I'm proud to say that while I am re-reading to my recent posts, may IMPROVEMENT naman akong nakita! (Ouch! Ang bigat palang magbuhat ng sariling bangko! Hahaha!)

And I'm planning to reconstruct everything! Actually matagal na ito. Hopefully, I'll find time :) Uhhmm... Anyone who can give a make-over to my blog (for FREE!) Just email me! Haha :D

Anyway, I temporarily deactivated my Facebook account (na naman) this morning for some personal reason. Ohh.. I know, I'm already immune to bad rumors (thank you to my background!) but hello! I'm just human. May puso din at nasasaktan! ECHOS!!! Hehehe :) But I'll be back soon kapag CHILLAX na ang lahat at hindi na ako BUSY! Naman! :))

I'm enjoying the new categories in my blog! Yepey! Haha :)

Okay, I'll end this post with this quote: "The joy of intimacy is a reward of commitment." -I Kissed Dating Goodbye by Joshua Harris

My words: Every intimate relationship should be and should have commitment. I know, in this generation there are a lot of young people who jump into a relationship here and there and without "commitment" and at the end they part ways as enemies! Okay, I think I'm exaggerating things! Haha :) For me, a relationship should have RESPECT and TRUST! Ohh.. Am I talking about this?! Wew!!! Parang expert lang eh. Haha :) Anyways, thank you to him who makes me see LOVE and intimate RELATIONSHIP the way I see it! Haha :DD And I'm already talking so much! Wew!!!

xoxo,

Sheena Niña

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Ask Me: If I were...

01. If I were a planet, I would be: Saturn…she looks graceful with all those rings around her. Lovely!
02. If I were a month, I would be: January! Ortega sisters birthday bash! ;)
03. If I were a day of the week, I would be: Sunday. Sabath day :)
04. If I were a time of day, I would be: Mornings…around 6 am or should I just say sunrise! :)
05. If I were a sea animal, I would be: Dolphin! :)
06. If I were a direction, I would be: North…
07. If I were a piece of furniture, I would be: Elegant Lamp.
08. If I were a sin, I would be: Lust? *smirks*
09. If I were a historical figure, I would be: Joan of Arc
10. If I were a liquid, I would be: water.. Hehe :)
11. If I were a stone, I would be: Diamonds are a girl's best friend. Go Beyonce! Hehehe :)
12. If I were a tree, I would be: Narra or Pine tree!
13. If I were a bird, I would be: Phoenix..
14. If I were a tool, I would be: Sledgehammer
15. If I were a flower/plant, I would be: a pink rose 
16. If I were a kind of weather, I would be: rainy or snowy..hehe
17. If I were an animal, I would be: bird!
18. If I were a color or shade, I would be: somewhere in the pink family! ;)
19. If I were an emotion, I would be: serenity! :)
20. If I were a vegetable, I would be: squash! The only veggie I eat! :)
21. If I were a sound, I would be: a heartbeat! :)
22. If I were an element, I would be: earth! :)
23. If I were a car, I would be: Porsche of course! :)
24. If I were a song, I would be: Heart of Worship (Hillsong)
25. If I were a movie, I would be directed by: Speilberg :)
26. If I were a book, I would be written by: me, myself and I! :)
27. If I were a food, I would be: junkfoods :)
28. If I were a place, I would be: Paris! :)
29. If I were a material, I would be: priceless! :)
30. If I were a taste, I would be: sweet enough to give you sore throat.
31. If I were a scent, I would be: Chanel :)
32. If I were a word, I would be: soul! :)
33. If I were a body part, I would be: eyes! :)
34. If I were a facial expression, I would be: smiling! :)
35. If I were a subject in school, I would be: Management and Marketing.
36. If I were a cartoon character, I would be: Hello Kitty! :))
37. If I were a shape, I would be: an abstract one ;)

xoxo,

Sheena Niña
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Ask Me #02

#02: Tell us about your favorite color:

*It's cute, it's feminine, it's girly and it's PINK!!! Pink is my favorite color! When I see anything PINK, it really makes me crazy. Hey, check my closet, or just my room, almost everything in it are PINK! :)

xoxo,

Sheena Niña

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A Matter Of Heart

For once.. I wanna be the reason why he cuts his hair, just because I told him so. The reason why he eats something just because it's my favorite food. The reason why he buys a shirt just because I have the same design. The reason why he falls asleep while holding his phone at night. The reason why he love something he used to hate because I love it. And lastly, I wanna be the reason why he smiles, laughs. I wanna be the reason of his every WHYs.

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There comes a point in your life that you met someone unexpectedly and you questioned God what His purpose for it. And maybe, just maybe you try to get rid of that person to free yourself from any heartaches or maybe, just maybe you let yourself to be acquainted to that person for no reason at all. It just happen without even thinking about it. And for the first time you find yourself falling for that person over and over again eventhough you didn't asked for it. You try to keep distance but inside you, you just can't because that person had already make a mark in your heart. And in one way or the other, no matter how you deny it to yourself, you just love having that person around.

In his simplest way, he always draw a smile in your face and makes you to not just think twice but thrice! Haha :)

It's a nice feeling, knowing that there is someone out there who is crazy over you. Okay! I'm exaggerating! Haha :) But it is.   

But above all, you just put things in God's hand. Because you know He has a reason for everything. And maybe, just maybe you're praying that this someone will be your everything in the right time and for all the right reason..

Maybe, just maybe...

Okay! Okay! I'll end this post with 1 Corinthians 13:4-8 scriptures:

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails.

xoxo,

Sheena Niña 

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